Adult
The other day, a close friend of mine gave me some current news about a girl I dated. When she began to explain it to me, there was this feeling that whatever she said no matter how horrible, I would be vindicated in some way for all this shit I had gone through. Or maybe that I would have gotten a glimpse of some kind of conclusion that I had not thought of or that she secretly wanted me back. The reality was: she was living in Burbank with some kind of unsightly fellow who sells drugs and has kids. I’m somewhat sure most of this information is true but I didn’t feel happy or vindicated, I just felt sad. Last I had heard of her before was that she was working as a bartender in Chinatown but really, how long does something like that last? I thought about how she could’ve gotten sidetracked from her goals but then I realized, I never knew what those were. I probably never asked or never knew or maybe she never had them. Either way I realized I didn’t really know her. What I did know was, I remember her being smart enough to get by which is why when I heard news about her I always expected her to be on top of everything. Don’t get me wrong though, its not like I want to her about her dating some hot shot creative from New York and she’s sun bathing on a yacht in the French Riviera or some shit, but to hear this recent news just made me feel sad for her.
I don’t think of her much these days, only once in awhile hearing tidbits down the grapevine. It’s odd to realize you never really got to know someone and yet, you tore yourself up into pieces over them. Either way it’s sad to hear such news and I hope things pick up for her.