C O N V E R G E

Some times I go through these motions of loneliness and more often than not feel these sense of immediacy. That it must be addressed right then and now. It’s been like this for almost two years now—its nothing new. But I get up every morning to do the whole school thing and I go out with my friends so I am by no means unoccupied. It’s just that third party that kind of makes everything else that is good in life that much sweeter, a little sugar in your cereal. I’m hopeless in the idea it would be something that came natural or serendipitously and I’m far too cynical and self-deprecating to believe that someone would ever accept me like I am right now. I like cigarettes and coffee, I enjoy bike rides and conversation that is ridiculous. I like getting drunk with friends and talking passionately about ridiculous situations and life goals. I like making people laugh it makes me feel less awkward. Overall I think I’m a pretty nice guy, I say “pardon me”, I hold doors open for old ladies but I don’t really do charity. I also complain a lot but I make up for it in sarcasm and sophomoric jokes. I’m comfortable with who I am for the most part but if I had a choice to make things “easier” I’d probably choose the latter.

Just sayin’