C O N V E R G E

Break a sweat easily lately, my body is used to lying down more. Nicotine starved. Over-hydrated. Throat full of little cuts, glands still slightly swollen. When I swallow it feel like something is stuck, I still only smell half of the things around me. Everything still tastes very bland. I feel like I’ve had the same meal for the whole week. Did I say nicotine starved? My immune system deserves better, I had a relapse a little last night. I think its more than obvious I haven’t seen sunlight in awhile. I finished all my work and rested as much I could. The coughing fits have subsides but when they arrive, oh it’s like I can’t imagine. the aftermath is always me wiping the pills of sweat off my brow and gasping for air. feeling like I had just wrestled a bear. throat aches after having surviving another fit. I move on.  I would be able to sleep like a baby if it wasn’t for this lingering cough. this last ditch effort of my infection. I’m finally winning and I’m just left with this empty cough and this tickle in the back of my throat I just can’t get rid of.

i have this box to show my class tomorrow evening. its called a personality box. we find or make a box, put things on the outside of things about us most people know about. then on the inside something we don’t normally tell people, possibly a secret. i have amusing ideas of pulling out a human heart or severed limb but i never would of course. i need to pass this class. i’d like to finish schoool. these GED classes though are soul crushing. mostly because of the kids in them. culinary, how I hate culinary students at my school. fucking scumbags.

nicotine starved, should I cheat… ohhh.