I see the signs, but something about it just doesn’t seem right…
I got this insanely generous response from my type teacher regarding this week’s assignment.
I kind of wish he didn’t go on for three minutes praising me (something he doesn’t have a reputation for)
I really don’t like to hear that based on a certain piece of work (something that is less than a % of what I will do in my lifetime) that
I will surmount to some kind of successful human being.
It just seems like a lot of expectation and for what?
Yeah I want to do good, I want to be able to pass my classes.
Part of me just feels like I’m doing this for an audience and that isn’t the point.
I still don’t fully feel dedicated or creative, something is missing still.
Spending all this money to go to school and still feel the same amount it is kind of weird.
But I do sense a transition of what I am capable of.
And how graphic design is slowly shifting from a hobby to a career option.
Which has always been hard for me to separate without one ruining the other.
I don’t think graphic design should be an input and output for me, it’s just too much.
I certainly do not design as much as I used to (on my own time)
But maybe I can take another path…